My name is C Fish

My name is C Fish and I’m an alcoholic. It means that sometimes life feels awesome like I can drop in and bust every trick. But often it means I slam hard to the bottom of the bowl. Sometimes I don’t know how to get back up. Other times I’m the one reaching to pick another up. I come from a past full of wounds. Being sober means I feel every last one of them. Even ones I didn’t know I had. I come from almost 19 years of skate punk and an alcoholic bloodline. So not surprising how things ended up. There are times I simply don’t understand how I feel about things. Addiction is the mental and emotional equivalent of a chronic physical illness. It’s like you’re either on fire and can’t get it together enough to put yourself out or you’re the bad ass putting out every fire with a skill beyond you. Everyday is a fist fight. You do what you can to have people to reach out to. Though if you’re an addict you likely have burned a great many bridges.

Thoughts on Antifa

Let’s start with the fact that I am very anti-fascist and therefore support the idea of Antifa. Now where I see problems. First off hiding your face for something you’re supposedly proud to be. Now many in the movement so this because they have riots over someone having a speaking engagement. Now Anne Coulter, Richard Spencer and Milo Y are horrible people to be sure. But silencing speech is itself fascist. So Antifa is being hypocritical.  Side note, I’m still cool with spencer being punched. I worry that the movement has been co-opted by outside influences that are actually quite fascist and a wonderful idea is being sold down the river. “Words hurt” isn’t a reason to engage in these sort of acts. That’s not fighting the power, it’s blindly following. Marches and protests yes. Acts of violence should only be defensive.