About C Fish

Aging skater and punk rock historian. No bands to speak of, just a writer. read my stuf at punxinsolidarity.com

Under the big black sun

Under an offensively bright sky that stretches from the cess pool of Los Angeles to the dirty streets of Long Beach and South Bay. We live and die for our crews and views. Some will tell you punk died or went away. We’re still fucking here! Damaged we ride our skateboards through cracked streets sweating out the toxins the city feeds us through osmosis. We really come out in the dark hours hangin in alleyways and street corners. Patches flown like gang colors let us know Who’s on our side and who to watch out for. We never walk alone. Under this black sun of so cal death we live!

C Fish

Team Pain

Team Pain

I battle old and new injuries constantly

I don’t count any cost ’cause it’s worth it

It sharpens me like a weapon for PMA

19 years in and I wouldn’t trade a minute of it for anything

This is the skate life

I am a warrior for creativity 

I have been fortunate to look up to and meet some world changing people

I am a proud member of team pain

Son of Dog Town and the Bones Brigade

One of those who waters the street plant

– C Fish

My name is C Fish

My name is C Fish and I’m an alcoholic. It means that sometimes life feels awesome like I can drop in and bust every trick. But often it means I slam hard to the bottom of the bowl. Sometimes I don’t know how to get back up. Other times I’m the one reaching to pick another up. I come from a past full of wounds. Being sober means I feel every last one of them. Even ones I didn’t know I had. I come from almost 19 years of skate punk and an alcoholic bloodline. So not surprising how things ended up. There are times I simply don’t understand how I feel about things. Addiction is the mental and emotional equivalent of a chronic physical illness. It’s like you’re either on fire and can’t get it together enough to put yourself out or you’re the bad ass putting out every fire with a skill beyond you. Everyday is a fist fight. You do what you can to have people to reach out to. Though if you’re an addict you likely have burned a great many bridges.

Thoughts on Antifa

Let’s start with the fact that I am very anti-fascist and therefore support the idea of Antifa. Now where I see problems. First off hiding your face for something you’re supposedly proud to be. Now many in the movement so this because they have riots over someone having a speaking engagement. Now Anne Coulter, Richard Spencer and Milo Y are horrible people to be sure. But silencing speech is itself fascist. So Antifa is being hypocritical.  Side note, I’m still cool with spencer being punched. I worry that the movement has been co-opted by outside influences that are actually quite fascist and a wonderful idea is being sold down the river. “Words hurt” isn’t a reason to engage in these sort of acts. That’s not fighting the power, it’s blindly following. Marches and protests yes. Acts of violence should only be defensive. 

Why Skate?

Now I know these days skateboarding is becoming a commodified “legit” sport and may not be looked at as active rebellion.  FUCK THAT! I got into skateboarding and punk rock at 15 for the same reasons. I didn’t fit in and didn’t care to. I thought everything else was bull shit and the cool kids sucked anyways. 19 years later I feel the same way. Even if the landscape has changed.